When I first here the word insecurity, I think of something physical. Like, my legs are so white and usually have bruises on them that I hate showing them. Or how I am insecure that I STILL breakout at the age of 26 and it seems like no matter what I do, make up just won't cover it up. Or how my hair is always so frizzy and I still can't seem to figure out how to get those baby hairs framing my face to keep the hair color in that I dye it. Or how none of my pre pregnancy clothes fit the same on my now post pregnancy body.
Then I realize that they are just small insecurities that I really don't let get to me for more than 5 minutes. The real insecurity that I have that I deal with the most is being a MOM. I feel there is so much responsibility in raising a little one. Not only the physical aspect of making sure they are clean, fed and watched with a careful eye, but also how to raise them with morals and to love God with all they have. Sometimes I am so nervous that how I am as a parent will directly effect what the future will hold for her and how I will play a part in the person she will become.
What I really need to be doing is trusting that God will give me the tools and confidence that I need to be the parent He needs me to be for her. I need to let the insecurity go and do my best to love and nurture her the best way I know how. Oh ya, and give her tons and tons of kisses and cuddles.
30 Day Challenge
day 19 - a picture and a letter
day 20 - a picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
day 21 - a picture of something you wish you could forget
day 22 - a picture of something you wish you were better at
day 23 - a picture of your favorite book
day 24 - a picture of something you wish you could change
day 25 - a picture of your day
day 26 - a picture of something that means a lot to you
day 27 - a picture of yourself and a family member
day 28 - a picture of something you're afraid of
day 29 - a picture that can always make you smile
day 30 - a picture of someone you miss
♥ Michelle
I totally understand what you mean! My mom always told me that as long as I'm doing everything with love, I'm probably doing it right :)
ReplyDeletecutest pic ever!!
ReplyDeletei couldnt agree more. In fact, I was shopping today for some post pregnancy clothes and spent all of about 5 minutes overwhelmed by the form of my new body, but that feeling fades away. The deep and true insecurity in my heart that i need to work through is "do i have what it takes to love and care for this sweet new life the way she needs?" its a big thing, but so rewarding and fulfilling.
ReplyDeleteYou are BEAUTIFUL!
ReplyDeleteP.S You make me want more tattoos. Now! :)
Love Love LOVE the picture of you and Chloe!
ReplyDeleteI never knew some of this. Even though you are my sister and I should. It's great learning about you still = D
Love you!
I feel the same way! It's such a huge responsibility to raise a child, because as a Christian, I want to do everything I can to raise them up "in the way they should go". . .
ReplyDeleteAnd I can totally relate to the white legs thing. Ugh.
I completely know where you are coming from! I feel the exact same way! I just pray and hope that I am rasing my little Ezri the way she needs me to! But I know with God guiding me I know she will turn out as awesome as i hope she will be!
ReplyDeleteBTW You are such an AMAZING MOM!!!!
I totally know what you mean! It's so hard as mothers to have these feelings but also know that we have to be strong for our daughters. Love your sweet blog, your daughter is precious!
ReplyDeleteIt is so nice to know that other moms out there have the same feeling. I love the mommy blogger community and I am so blessed to have blogger friends like you and to now that I am not in this alone! Thanks for all the encouraging words and great advice. Love you all!
ReplyDeletefrom what i have seen so far you are a great mom. And I know you will do what is needed for her. Love you very much.
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