This opens up a whole can of worms. There are tons of things I wish I could change and on various levels too. I feel that are so many things that I want changed that has nothing to do with myself: world hunger, human trafficking and crime in general. Those things are something that I know I can be a part of to make that change happen, but on my own nothing will change.
However, there are things that I can change with just little ol' me. For instance, the relationship I have with my father. We have had a very rocky relationship when I was growing up, in fact rocky relationship would be an understatement. We pretty much had a non existent relationship and I hated him for many years. Now, the relationship is totally different. I have found the Lord who took my hurt and anguish away and had replaced it with grace and forgiveness. Now, my father and I have a pretty good relationship. He even walked me down the aisle at my wedding. Something I never thought would happen in a million years.
I wish I could change how I felt about him earlier, I wish we had more of a relationship growing up. I wish that I could have found forgiveness sooner. I wish that the relationship we have now could be even stronger. This I know I can change, it all depends on me and how much I pursue our relationship. I can call him more, I can send more letters and pictures, I can save up money to go visit him. I can show more interest in his daily life and the people he shares it with. In fact, I will go call him right now.
30 Day Challenge
day 25 - a picture of your day
day 26 - a picture of something that means a lot to you
day 27 - a picture of yourself and a family member
day 28 - a picture of something you're afraid of
day 29 - a picture that can always make you smile
day 30 - a picture of someone you miss
♥ Michelle
So as I read this I started to tear up. I wish I could find that forgiveness; But right now it's not my time to.
ReplyDeleteI came back to see what you said about my comment yesterday- but your post is gone! Did you get it?
ReplyDeleteOh, and I totally 'stole' your button :)
grrr. blogger erased a bunch of my post that I pre-written and waiting for blogger to get back into the swing of things to post. I didn't realize they deleted some I had already posted!
ReplyDeleteSo, no, i didn't get it. and I actually wrote a really long comment on your post the other day and when I hit send, it said error! gah!